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I FAILED FOR GOOD

Flora 2

Acts 4:23- When they saw the courage of Peter and John, they realized they were unschooled, ordinary men, they were astonished and they took note that these ordinary men had been with Jesus. But I failed for good.

Have you heard that you are an average of the five people you spend your time with? Who have you been spending time with? Who are your true friends? Growing as a teenager, I wasn’t the very popular girl in school, was I even popular? I was just that kid with a red bag and walking with a group of other girls like me.

 

I FAILED. That wasn't fatal.
PICTURE TAKEN IN MY FINAL YEAR IN SECONDARY SCHOOL- I HAD LEARNED FROM MY MISTAKES IN JUNIOR SCHOOL.

 

 

We talked about boys and other irrelevant thing, shared stuff and ate together in our school’s dinning hall, a clique of 6 girls or more who just enjoyed the average life of every other random teenager in secondary school. We were all alike, I guess that was what made us friends.

 

I FAILED. But only so I could win,
MY FRIENDS AND I IN SENIOR SCHOOL. THIS PHOTO LOOKS LIKE IT WAS TAKEN IN THE ’90S, IT’S NOT SO OLD THO. CAN YOU SEE MY RED BAG AND ROLLED UP SLEEVES?

 

 

We probably didn’t start off like that, we had our differences, each mild or wild character exhibited by everyone of us that made us unique. Who was I among these girls? If you know me well, you will have the right answer. My first three years in secondary school were a typical example of what you call, the carelessness of a confident teenager. 

I thought I was intelligent or like my fellow Nigerians will say, I think say I know book. Haha, but I was simply disillusioned. From the ‘booky’ child who always got first position in class in primary school to the teenager who was truant, didn’t pay attention in class and didn’t submit assignments. I had 9 school terms of terrible results.

 I didn’t like that I was failing, but I was comfortable with it.

Sometimes you may find yourself in this kind situation, you know there is a problem but you just feel helpless and resolve to self pity, well what can I do? If you remain in this position of seeing yourself as being unable to help yourself, you will not be able to get out of that trouble.

 

Once, my mom beat me so hard out of anger because I was too ashamed and scared to show her my result for the term. She discovered I had been lying to her for weeks and today, I am grateful she had to beat my lost senses back into me. It marked the beginning of what became a turning point in my life. 

My life changed. I attended summer coaching with my childhood friend and this made me become friends with his friends. These guys were intimidating, I mean, they were hot. I just looked at myself and felt like I didn’t belong but I didn’t let that feeling keep me from being with them. I loved the challenge that being with them gave me. It made me study hard. I began to desire success, couldn’t bear being the girl who was comfortable with mediocrity. Story forwarded;

After my last term in secondary school, I was sent a letter to attend my school’s speech and prize giving day.

The most Important thing in my story is this: There is someone who had had helped me pull through, someone who always stood by me, someone who always helped me realize that I could make it, someone even taught me during exams, the invigilators never saw this person but he was always there for me. He turned this failure into a champion.

When I wanted to study, even now, I ask him to help me with my study. He guides me through it. I recall my friend asked me once, how come you don’t forget when you read? Guys, let us learn now that reading and studying are two similar yet very different things. Learn the difference here.

 

This friend of mine is Jesus.

If you choose to spend time and allow him to take control of your life, like gospel singer Sinach sang in her song, there is no failure with God, you will not fail. Look at that verse up there, the disciples were a proof, he is still at work. Just turn to him. You may not even be qualified, but he will qualify you. You may be the least, he will make you the best.

Another inspiring story is that of Ben Carson here is a link to the moviehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T6al76vZFUQ if you haven’t seen it or you can read any of his books. The great thing is that despite being well learned, he still attributes his successes to God. The foundation for true success.

I didn’t know I was going to blog this story, I didn’t think I was prepared to make myself vulnerable today, I had no intentions of sharing a blog post today but I thought someone may want to read this story. Maybe that person is you.

I hope someone has been blessed reading this. Do you know how excited I feel reading your comments, Please leave something to make me glad and touch others too in the comment box.

You friends will be happy if you shared this post with them.

I am still your friend and as always,

I Love you.

Flora Ezeani.

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Yeah, Jesus does help us when we need him. As much as we work hard, he helps our efforts and even when we fail he’s there to keep us strong. Keep up the good work Flora. You are definitely affecting lives positively.

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